Why I'm even writing the blog in the first place!

I want to start this today by saying how grateful I am for all of you who’s been reading my words, following my blog, and for the feedback I’ve been receiving. It’s been beyond what I expected or I am not entirely sure I actually expected any of it at all. I didn’t even think I’d actually publish the blog or let alone share it as I was always a bit strange about sharing my writing with anyone. Now looking back at my past few years in life, I’m blown away by where I am at now in comparison to where I was. It isn’t the most fond memories or the best time in my life but I am able to look back now, and be grateful for all that I’ve endured, as it led me to here, right now.

All I’ve learnt in terms of the mind and body and knowing how to utilise them in a way that allows me to live life each day feeling grateful and feeling so much at peace, and feeling that my heart is open and to feel love so deeply, I can only count as the biggest blessing in my life. I wouldn’t trade any thing I’ve experienced in my life if that means I won’t be where I am now.

The reason I’m telling you all this is because it’s easy to look around you and be bombarded with all the negativity in the world. It’s a lot of suffering we see daily. May it be on the news, the struggles in your own life, of your friends and family, it can sometimes seem endless. It’s okay to feel how you feel and maybe even give yourself a day or two to process things. I’ve realised we suffer without even knowing that we are suffering. Both mentally and physically.

If you suffer with headaches all day or from time to time, or pretty frequently, feeling tired, sleepy, and feeling bloated after you eat, and feeling some discomfort in your stomach, or sometimes your memory may seem to be quite foggy, and it’s quite usual to be feeling fatigue all day, these are things most of us have normalised and tend to think coffee or water would fix, and overlook. I’m here to say it’s not normal for you to experience this regularly or even frequently if you do. Those are actually symptoms and we normally don’t pay attention to any of it till a bigger sickness that we can’t avoid occurs and we are forced to stop and give it attention.

As for the mind, it’s when we are allowing our minds to steer us and drive us. The ego, the conscious mind, usually drives from fear. When we are dealing with a problem, it’s only a problem because we are trying to control the outcome of how something would pan out. We are trying to control because it’s stemmed by the fear of the unknown. Though we have no control in anything that happens in life when you look at it from the grand scheme of things, we still like the illusion of control. That’s why when the mind is controlling us and we are slaves to the mind, it’s normal for us to be stressed and live a life of suffering.

We can’t fix something we don’t think to be a problem. There are so many things we do habitually, not with awareness. If you are taking medicine everyday or have been for quite sometime over the years and even for over ten years of your life, you do know that it’s not a fix but a temporary relief of the symptoms. I spent over two years of my life taking medicine daily to realise that I’m still in pain and it’s not really curing me. It might give me momentary relief, and sometimes, not even that. I took all possible precautions and avoided whatever that I was told to avoid, to not trigger my body, I was quarantining myself long before it became a global situation. I couldn’t be exposed to the dust or the sun, or anything at all really as other allergies would come up that I might not even be aware of. I had to give up my puppies at some point, which meant I simply had to make sure my environment was super clean and mostly meant I just spend all day at home and obsessively ensuring there’s not a speck of dust anywhere around me. I didn’t quarantine myself because I was scared of spreading anything, I wasn’t contagious, but my body was like a sponge, where if someone around me is even remotely sick, it just meant I have to suffer for the next two weeks trying to get better.

Going through that and taking medicine, going to different doctors, trying different types of medicine, I eventually understood that they weren’t any permanent fixes and I wasn’t okay with living life so restricted, and in pain. Maybe it's my stubbornness that I wasn’t okay with my reality in the moment, led me to learning and understanding my body and mind better. Eventually coming to a point where I let everything go that I used to believe and starting to view things as is, which helped me heal myself by working on my body and the mind. It’s been nearly a year since I’ve stopped medicine or lived life restrictively. I go out in the sun, I can go to the beach, or walk anywhere and beyond it all, I can play with puppies again! I feel the fittest and healthiest I’ve been all my life.

If I normalised my pain and believed that would be my life from there on, I don’t think I’ll be here now. But being relentless in creating the reality I want, I’m so grateful that I am now living my life and creating each day to be exactly what I want. Better yet, I am able to allow life to happen to me as opposed to trying to control it, which is probably why I’m feeling at peace all the time. Any thing I come across, I’m mostly able to view it for what it is and not let the mind steer me or live life in fear.

The moment you are present, the body lets go of the stress in that moment and you’re only feeling at peace. In that moment, your body is functioning and regulating smoothly and as it’s meant to. When you’e stressed in your mind, body starts to work from a state fight/ flight where it cannot regulate properly. Hence why whenever you are sick, it comes down to your mind and body functioning from a state of stress. I’ll maybe write more about this later which would give a better understanding of the gut health, the nervous system, mind-body connection, etc.

But for now, this is just a glimpse into why I’m even writing the blog in the first place. When I feel so good all day, everyday, and in a state of bliss, I sometimes feel guilty not to share this with others and to understand we don’t have to suffer so much. For all of you, who read this and may have any questions, do feel free to drop me a message or leave a comment. I’d really appreciate it. This is the most vulnerable I’ve been and I’m grateful I feel comfortable enough to be able to do that. So once again, thank you! I hope you take a second today, to maybe look at your life and understand what are the things you do habitually, what are your triggers, sit with them, be present and maybe see it simply for what it is. :)