But isn't everything we see really an illusion after all?

My mind is still and I feel the vibrations around my body. I feel the energy within. It’s easy to feel the vibrations and the energy at my fingertips, the palms, and the toes to start off with. I’m following my body I’m letting my body take the lead. It’s not that I am completely out of thoughts, I’m not there yet. A random thought or two would pop up from time to time and I’m realising it’s trying to regain control. The toughest part of the mind is to let go and let all things naturally flow. It finds ease in trying to control every circumstance and situation. But the truth is you cannot really control or do anything about any situation that unfolds, all you can do is be. Be aware. Be aware it is happening. Observe. See it for what it is.

The stillness always amazes me; the calmness I feel surrounding it. In this moment I'm at peace. The body and mind is definitely grateful for it. It’s a new feeling but it’s definitely a mind blowing feeling. It makes me feel emotions that are simply joy and compassion. The moment I start seeing the beauty in ordinary things in life, let me rephrase, the moment I start seeing the beauty in everything in life I feel is the moment I actually start living. I’ve spent my entire time on this planet with sight but not seeing, hearing sounds but not listening, with a physical body but not ever paying attention to it. I’ve never heard my breathing before internally with no sound. Every moment I've not been present I've merely auto piloted my way through life. I’ve being seeking answers, but I finally realised that I’ve not been looking for them at the right places. I expected to find the answers externally from the outside sources not realising that all the answers we are looking for is within. What is the external reality anyway? Isn’t it what we perceive it to be depending on the mould we’ve created with what’s been fed to our minds since we were kids? But isn’t everything we see really an illusion after all?

We think we see with our eyes but the light that's reflected from the objects in the perceived reality, we view and review in our brain/mind, so ultimately everything we see, we view in our mind. Everything we touch, we can only feel the forces surrounding it but we cannot ever actually touch something as it is. It is merely the forces repulsing each other that we feel. Then why do we keep separating ourselves with the external world. Everything we see and feel is merely inside us. We are merely aware of everything that unfolds around us. So why is it so hard then to realise that we are simply an awareness. Nothing less, nothing more.